Kristy R. Langstraat-Bolte

This book was called Heaven is for Real the Book Isn’t. An Astounding Refutation of a Story about a Trip to Heaven and Back. by D. Eric Williams. What he did was explain why the book, “Heaven Is For Real : A Little’s Boy’s Astonishing Story from Heaven and Back” couldn’t possibly have happened. It made me mad, because I really wanted to believe the story was true. It gave me hope that I truly will get to see my mom again someday. But what this guy says is that when you have visions of Heaven and stuff like that, that it is not from God, it is actually demonic and from the Devil, because according to the Bible, God would never let anyone actually see Heaven and return from it to tell people about it. So yeah……

I have been wanting to read this next book for quite sometime. It is called Prairie Tale: A Memoir by Melissa Gilbert. For those who don’t know, she played Laura Ingalls Wilder on Little House on the Prairie. I have to say I have always wanted to be her, Laura not Melissa. But I did have dreams that I was the actress who played Laura. Although I would have really liked to live during that time, not just pretended I did. I always thought she was a horrible actress, and watching her on dancing with the stars made me really dislike her. But I must say this book was amazing! She actually wrote it really well. It was so interesting, I couldn’t put it down!!!! Her life really shocked me too…. And she did ruin Michael Landon for me, but still overall, a GREAT read!

This book was recommended to me by Pastor Paula. It was called I’m Grieving as Fast as I can by Linda Feinberg. It was more geared towards people who lost there spouse, but man I just really like that title. And there were still good things in it even for me. I did give it to my dad, I hope he will take the time to read it, or at least scan through it. I like the title because I feel like people expect me to be over it already, and that I’m supposed to just be ok that my mom is dead. I also hate it when people tell me that I am doing better. NO I AM NOT! But what am I supposed to do? Lay in bed and never move? (Even though I’d like to!). I have to go to work, and I have to be somewhat nice when I’m there, I can’t just mope around, it’s not what is expected of me. But just because I am apparently a really good actress, does not mean I am miraculously all better! Guess what? I never will be! My life has changed forever, but not for the better, for the worse. I am a completely different person that I was before this happened. I will never be ok, so stop assuming that I am. Ok, I obviously felt like I needed to rant, so guess this post is done……

This book was called I Wasn’t Ready to say Goodbye (Surviving, Coping, and Healing after the Sudden Death of a Loved One) by Brook Noel and Pamela D. Blair. I am so glad I found this book, FINALLY a book that totally understood me and what I was going through! I wish I could meet these authors and talk to them in person, because they each lost a loved one suddenly and understand what you truly are going through, one of them even lost a parent. I didn’t want the book to end because I felt like I had my own little support group who got me, and was there for me, and who wanted to help me.

This book was recommended to me by Pastor Paula. It is called I’m Grieving as Fast as I Can by Linda Feinberg. I feel that title really fit me. The book was more about new widows and widowers because they just lost their spouse. Even though I didn’t fit into that category, I could see a lot of myself with these pages.

This book was actually recommended to me by my dad. It was on the kindle, well he read it on his phone, and actually I ended up reading it on my phone too, first time I’ve ever done that! This book is called Heaven Is For Real: A Little Boy’s Astonishing Story From Heaven and Back by Todd Burpo. This book was pretty good, but it made me think a lot, and sometimes I don’t enjoy that especially about such serious things. Sometimes I read to get away from my life and away from the real world or even away from the afterlife as well as my emotions. It was still a unique story, and I really want to believe that it was true. Part of the time I did , and other times it was just so hard to believe it. I would still recommend this book though.

Book 56 was a super short book called A Time To Grieve by Kenneth C. Haugk. It was actually sent to me through the mail but a tap teacher I had, Dianne. It was so nice of her to send me this, and everything I read just had me nodding my head and agreeing. It’s like this book really knew me. I gave it to my dad to read now, I hope he does.

This was the 3rd and final book in The Christmas Chronicles by Jeff Guinn. This final book was called The Great Santa Search. This story was even better, it was like set during our time, it was so believable too. In fact it made me really want to believe in Santa, but especially so, because of how much my mom loved and believed.

This book was the 2nd book in the Christmas Chronicles by Jeff Guinn. This one was called How Mrs. Claus Saved Christmas. I liked this book too. Again I loved all of the history in it, and again I am just saddened how my mom will never get to enjoy it……