Kristy R. Langstraat-Bolte

Mom’s Memorial Service

friskypepper — Sun, 20 May 2012 17:07:25 +0000

A few Sunday’s ago there was a memorial service at Elmhurst Memorial Hospital, for anyone who had died in the last 3 months. We went and I am glad we did. We got to bring a picture of my mom and put it on a table where they lit a candle. Then there was a nice service, and they actually read all of the names, which I thought was nice. Plus we got to go up and take flowers, which we later brought to my mom’s grave that day. I also got a nice little pin to keep as well, which I pretty much wear every day.

My dad took this picture, and there was a white orb in it, I think it was mom, I believe she was there with us that day.

Here is the picture we brought of my mom and her candle.

These were the flowers we got to take.

And finally some of the other pictures of the other deceased.

I want to thank the following people for coming and remembering my mommy.

My dad, Darrell, Aunt Judy, Uncle Ken, Colleen, Vicky & Francis, Marlene, Aileen, Mr. & Mrs. Burks, Marian, Anita & Ravi. It meant a lot.

Book 62 of 500!

friskypepper — Sun, 20 May 2012 16:59:12 +0000

This book was called Heaven is for Real the Book Isn’t. An Astounding Refutation of a Story about a Trip to Heaven and Back. by D. Eric Williams. What he did was explain why the book, “Heaven Is For Real : A Little’s Boy’s Astonishing Story from Heaven and Back” couldn’t possibly have happened. It made me mad, because I really wanted to believe the story was true. It gave me hope that I truly will get to see my mom again someday. But what this guy says is that when you have visions of Heaven and stuff like that, that it is not from God, it is actually demonic and from the Devil, because according to the Bible, God would never let anyone actually see Heaven and return from it to tell people about it. So yeah……

Book 61 of 500!

friskypepper — Sun, 20 May 2012 16:56:58 +0000

I have been wanting to read this next book for quite sometime. It is called Prairie Tale: A Memoir by Melissa Gilbert. For those who don’t know, she played Laura Ingalls Wilder on Little House on the Prairie. I have to say I have always wanted to be her, Laura not Melissa. But I did have dreams that I was the actress who played Laura. Although I would have really liked to live during that time, not just pretended I did. I always thought she was a horrible actress, and watching her on dancing with the stars made me really dislike her. But I must say this book was amazing! She actually wrote it really well. It was so interesting, I couldn’t put it down!!!! Her life really shocked me too…. And she did ruin Michael Landon for me, but still overall, a GREAT read!

Book 60 of 500!

friskypepper — Sun, 20 May 2012 16:54:56 +0000

This book was recommended to me by Pastor Paula. It was called I’m Grieving as Fast as I can by Linda Feinberg. It was more geared towards people who lost there spouse, but man I just really like that title. And there were still good things in it even for me. I did give it to my dad, I hope he will take the time to read it, or at least scan through it. I like the title because I feel like people expect me to be over it already, and that I’m supposed to just be ok that my mom is dead. I also hate it when people tell me that I am doing better. NO I AM NOT! But what am I supposed to do? Lay in bed and never move? (Even though I’d like to!). I have to go to work, and I have to be somewhat nice when I’m there, I can’t just mope around, it’s not what is expected of me. But just because I am apparently a really good actress, does not mean I am miraculously all better! Guess what? I never will be! My life has changed forever, but not for the better, for the worse. I am a completely different person that I was before this happened. I will never be ok, so stop assuming that I am. Ok, I obviously felt like I needed to rant, so guess this post is done……

Cake!

friskypepper — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:46:03 +0000

A couple weeks ago Darrell, my dad and me were at Walmart and we found this cake! I just had to take a picture! I should have bought it, it looks so YUMMY!

My babies!

friskypepper — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:44:21 +0000

I just need to post pictures every now and then of my cute, adorable kitty babies!

They don’t like me to leave them, when I pack and spend the night at my parent’s house! Aren’t they adorable?

Here is Mary being super cute on the top of the laundry rack. She just always has to be on the highest point, and I think she secretly enjoys getting fur on my clean clothes!

Easter

friskypepper — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:40:33 +0000

My first Easter without my mom. I can’t lie, it was hard, it was sad, it wasn’t the same and it never will be. I missed getting together with the whole family, my mom being there, and eating all of her wonderful cooking. We decided to do something different this year, because we couldn’t just go sit there and pretend everything was the same and/or normal without my mom there……. So dad, Darrell and me visited my mom at the cemetery and then we went to an Easter Brunch. Not an awful day, but holidays just don’t mean anything to me anymore with my mom there…..

Here we are: My dad will be mad I posted this one, but I think we look the best here.

Take 2: This one wasn’t as good as the first picture!

Book 59 of 500!

friskypepper — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:36:49 +0000

This book was called I Wasn’t Ready to say Goodbye (Surviving, Coping, and Healing after the Sudden Death of a Loved One) by Brook Noel and Pamela D. Blair. I am so glad I found this book, FINALLY a book that totally understood me and what I was going through! I wish I could meet these authors and talk to them in person, because they each lost a loved one suddenly and understand what you truly are going through, one of them even lost a parent. I didn’t want the book to end because I felt like I had my own little support group who got me, and was there for me, and who wanted to help me.

Book 58 of 500!

friskypepper — Sun, 29 Apr 2012 21:33:23 +0000

This book was recommended to me by Pastor Paula. It is called I’m Grieving as Fast as I Can by Linda Feinberg. I feel that title really fit me. The book was more about new widows and widowers because they just lost their spouse. Even though I didn’t fit into that category, I could see a lot of myself with these pages.

Book 57 of 500!!

friskypepper — Sun, 08 Apr 2012 22:34:55 +0000

This book was actually recommended to me by my dad. It was on the kindle, well he read it on his phone, and actually I ended up reading it on my phone too, first time I’ve ever done that! This book is called Heaven Is For Real: A Little Boy’s Astonishing Story From Heaven and Back by Todd Burpo. This book was pretty good, but it made me think a lot, and sometimes I don’t enjoy that especially about such serious things. Sometimes I read to get away from my life and away from the real world or even away from the afterlife as well as my emotions. It was still a unique story, and I really want to believe that it was true. Part of the time I did , and other times it was just so hard to believe it. I would still recommend this book though.